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Howdy folks. Today’s post is sort of an “I think” topic. I’m going to tell y’all what I’ve learned about anger over the course of my life.
I’m not a therapist or a psychologist. Hell, I’ve never been to one. I learned this stuff through reading and thinking and living life.
What I say here is not intended as medical advice…or anything close. If you need a mental health professional, go see one!
The Roots of Anger
In my experience, most anger is rooted in fear or hurt. I know that sounds simplistic, but fear and hurt are both broad terms.
Fear can be related to:
- fear of rejection
- fear of humiliation
- loss of income
- loss of possessions
- fear of lonlieness
- fear of losing control (of others, of self, of events)
- relationships (loss of OR committing to)
- a million other things
Hurt can be related to:
- social isolation
- loss of loved ones
- feeling ostracized over personal appearance or some other difference
- a million other things
Much fear and hurt can be traced back to baggage. I use the term baggage to refer to previous hurts and wrongs. Most of us lug this crap around like that heavy old Sampsonite luggage.
I’ve found, if I analyze carefully, I can find the root of my anger…and it’s usually fear or hurt.
How I Use This Information
The information here is stuff I use both in my real life and in my writing.
In my real life:
Analyzing the roots of my anger and figuring out why I feel the way I do gives me a chance to calm down and think things through before I lash out. And, believe me, my lash outs are nothing anybody wants to see. I’m downright nasty.
Learning to analyze my anger has given me a great deal of peace. I can untangle the way I feel and understand what, if anything, I can do to feel better.
Sometimes, the answer is nothing more–or less–than removing myself from a situation or person. Other times, it’s matter of attempting to change the way I allow myself to feel about something.
Responsibility for my Feelings
Notice I said “allow myself to feel.” One of the biggest and best life lessons I’ve learned is that I am responsible for how I feel. Even if somebody else did me wrong, I am still responsible for my feelings (and what I do about them).
Here’s why: my anger, my outrage, and my angst have more power to make me miserable than anybody else. They have more power to get me into trouble than anybody else.
But That’s Not Fair!
Nope. It ain’t. But life is not fair. Trust me on this. Often, it sucks.
Some of the suckage is stuff I can control. But the large majority of it is stuff I cannot control, no matter how I wiggle and dance. No matter how pissed off I get.
Sometimes–no, oftentimes–I have to say “just forget it” and walk away. That never, ever means I let people run over me. But I’m training myself to know which battles are winnable and which ones are not.
I suspect we each come to a point where we analyze our lives the same way as the narrator of this song. It’s good to know how we got to where we ended up and why. And to know how we want to handle the next onslaught of crap.
In my writing…
I use what I’ve talked about here to analyze what my characters are about, especially the things that piss them off. I ask myself “Where is the root of this anger?”
Doing this helps me
- write deeper characterizations
- develop fatal flaws
- figure out upcoming plot points
- put my characters in greater peril
- make my characters hurt worse emotionally